Work and no workout

Sometimes working eight hours on my feet feels like I went to the gym and played basketball - especially on busy weekends like yesterday and today. It does not necessarily follow that I should shirk my workout but all I could do tonight was stumble in the door, make dinner, throw in a load of laundry in the wash and fall onto the couch for 45 minutes before Kaden came over. (I know I am tired when I don't notice that he has drawn all over his face and hands with a permanent marker on my watch). I ate crappy today but I often falter when I get tired. Oatmeal with dried fruit, yogurt, egg and sausage, then spaghetti at dinner. I really don't care at all. I told Diana that a customer once told me she joined Weight Watchers and I blurted out, "Ohhh...whenever I think of Weight Watchers its like someone is holding a pillow over my face". Too many rules make me draw outside the lines immediately! Tomorrow is a new day and I will draw the lines myself for my own success.

Snow White and the Devil

It has come to my attention the need to clarify the snow white bowl. Yes, I did mean Snow White as in the Seven Dwarfs. It is large and green and Snow White is dancing on the front. The pears and cottage cheese looked a little lonely in the bottom of that thing. She looks much happier dancing around a bowl of vanilla ice cream smothered in hot fudge!

So my strategy to "pack it on" last weekend worked as I have lost eight pounds as of this morning. Yippee! I am trying to eat a little more to keep the metabolism burning but again today I just wasn't that hungry. Today was a smoothie for breakfast, protein bar for lunch, oatmeal with dried fruit as a snack this afternoon and chicken caesar salad with bread tonight. I am not hungry now but still a plate (yes, I said plate) of warm chocolate chip cookies with a cold diet pepsi sound heavenly. But those cookies AREN"T heavenly! They are the devil! The DEVIL in brown sugar. They only lead you down a primrose path to depression and misery.

Ok, so I got a little carried away. Onward.

Forgetting to Eat

So it is not like me to forget to eat but today I did. It is almost 7:00 p.m. and I just realized I haven't eaten since 12:30 p.m.. Today I had my normal smoothie (blueberries, blackberries, yogurt and acai juice) for breakfast, had a protein bar and some cashews at lunch cuz I was on the run getting my haircut and grocery shopping and now I am eating pears and cottage cheese out of a snow white bowl while I wait for beef and barley soup to finish cooking. I really don't feel like eating. That means I will be ravenous in the morning before work. On days like today I wonder....am I forgetting something? Did I really eat something else and don't remember? You know, like one of those people who take an Ambien sleeping pill and get up in the middle of the night and eat a whole pan of brownies? Trust me. It happens. Onward.

Weighing In

The calls started this morning from managers giving me their weight for I am "the keeper of the weights". I actually thought I would have to remind them to let me know but to my surprise they were anxious to do it. Those conversations varied from "don't breath this to a living soul" to "I don't care if you tell the whole world". A new and interesting side to my peers. I like it.

As for me, Mondays are always packed and this was no exception. I started the day right with an ice cold diet pepsi on my drive to work. I know I am PMSing when I need diet pepsi before 6 am. I was hungry today which is unusual. I had blueberries, acai juice and yogurt about 7am. At 10 I was hungry and I ate a reduced fat turkey bacon breakfast sandwich and then got really hungry again and realized it was 1pm when I had an oatmeal with one pump sugar free vanilla and dried fruit. I had two bites of frozen yogurt when I remembered that I wasn't eating sugar! HA! (I then threw it in the trash) I came home after a long day to make my family scallops gratin by Ina Garten. Since I am allergic to shellfish I ate chicken breast and some almonds. Dessert was another diet pepsi with Absolut. Nice. I realize in writing this that I didn't have any greens. Tomorrow is a new day with my workout planned in the morning and some dark leafy greens somewhere along the way. Gonna drink a glass of water, work on homework and fall into bed.

The match

I used to date a guy in high school who wrestled heavy weight on the wrestling team. As a wrestler he would have to weigh in at match time and couldn't be over a certain weight. His pattern was that he wouldn't eat all day of the match and then scarf all his favorite food right after the meet was over. It was a little disconcerting to watch but then again, I never understood why guys would want to touch each other's sweaty bodies on a gritty mat. Ick. So my dilemma is kind of the reverse since the managers in our district decided to hold the initial weigh in on Monday and our contest would begin then. Well, dang. I've been working at this and losing a couple pounds so now I feel like I gotta PACK IT ON! I have the weekend to eat sodium-rich foods so I can gain some water weight for my initial weigh in so it will deceptively look like I have lost more later. Oh brother. This seems wrong on so many levels. I'm off to order a pizza and pour myself a cold drink.

One measly pound

Each morning I have been getting on the scale and it reads the same number. Day after day after day. (okay so its only been three days). This morning it moved one pound down! I was feeling good and repeating the mantra in my head, "one pound a week is 52 pounds in a year". Then I checked Staci's blog (another manager at work). That creep has lost seven pounds this week. Dang. I chalked it up to her being twenty years my junior and moved on.

It's a good thing my husband doesn't read blogs. This gives me license to confess publicly those things he may never realize.....like why his protein bars are MIA. I decided I like those little peanut butter ones and I don't always plan my menu so I just take one at a time and slide them into the dark chasm of my gigantuan purse. (Is gigantuam a George W word? I always loved it when he made up words). ANYWAY, at some point he will question me about them and I will cock my head sideways and squint my eyes and say, "Hmm" like I am really concentrating on where those little rascals could be. And he will saunter off and that will be that. I love that man.

Figuring This Out

Okay, so my son has told me that my last blog was not a blog at all but rather a post for facebook (which I used to call MyFace cuz I couldn't remember the name). Yeah, yeah, yeah. The point of this is to have some fun and plot my course for weight loss. The goal? Twenty pounds - and of course the purse at work for the manager who loses the most weight. I am glad we are starting on Friday because today I tried to make a shake out of berries, yogurt and Acai juice. It was great but only proved to awaken a hunger so ravenous that I swiped a chocolate cupcake sample. Dang. Ate chinese food for lunch (double dang) but no dinner and worked out. I haven't hit the weights in some time so the squats I did yesterday are starting to surface. (my butt hurts when I try to sit down!) My husband thought the treadmill died so he placed it on the side of the house and it is now a total loss. The rain has demolished it. So for now it is weights, stairs, the ball and my tennis shoes. Let the games begin!

Contest is Coming!

Our contest is to start Friday! Biggest Loser wins the pot of money and their self-respect!